WE’RE GETTING A BABY!!!!!!!! Holy shit! Scott and I were both just starting to freak out because it’s been a couple of days since we met with Juno so of course the doubt was creeping in. I was starting to resign myself to the call – she’s going a different direction, she picked someone else, she thought you guys were freak shows, she can’t give her baby to a guy who used to be a cheerleader. I was just starting to think it was too good to be true and that we were due for a little more roller coastering before our baby found us. But he did! He has! And he’ll be here in 2 months!! We are so excited, through the roof, over the clouds. I can’t wait to tell our parents and our friends and then just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best, I suppose. I am so wound up right now I can’t even see straight! What a fabulous anniversary present. Lucky number seven! I will always remember that I was in my robe with a towel turban on my head when our adoption coordinator called…in the middle of the afternoon! Thank goodness they couldn’t see that or they probably would have changed their minds for sure!
I want to write down how thankful I am for Juno. When she asked me what I would tell her/our son about her I wasn’t completely sure. But today I know that I’ll be able to tell him that she was very careful and thoughtful about her decision, that she took her time to make a choice that she thought would give him the best opportunities in life to achieve his goals and be everything that he could. That she was a smart woman even though her age makes her just a girl, she’s making choices that are very adult, very giving and, yes, very hard.
It must be a huge sacrifice for her to place her first baby with a boy she obviously loves with someone else. That kind of decision is made from nothing but love. It can’t have been an easy decision for her especially when there are so many other options, but we are so grateful and thankful that she is as strong as she is and loves him as much as she does. This is the best gift that we have ever been given and every time we look at our boy, cheer for him, hug him, tuck him in at night, calm a temper tantrum, wipe a stinky butt, ground him for some kind of shenanigans we will do it knowing the blessing that he is in our life and how lucky we are to have him. All thanks to Juno and Paulie.
And can I mention that this was one heck of an anniversary present?!
